After a bit over two months now, the ongoing saga continues and I am fed up! Although I am wanting to work out what I want to do with my life, I also want to see progress in other impacted areas of my life like wanting to have more confidence in myself again and to feel less negative about life as it got to a point where I almost considered taking the blog down and stopping writing altogether. In times like this, you are told to take one day at a time. Although that does make sense, I often struggle with this because of my impatience meaning that I sometimes have to stop myself from making rash, often unwise decisions. Even though I am not someone who needs to have the next five years of their life planned out, I still like to have a general idea of what direction I am heading in so I’m not living in complete uncertainty.

I have been re-watching some boxsets recently and it’s interesting to watch characters who are going through troublesome times when you know and want to tell them that during the next few seasons, things will get better for them. I hope that this will be the case for me too and that I will eventually understand why I was made differently from other people and what I can do as a result of that as right now, I hate that I struggle so much with talking to people but also generally why all these unfortunate events have happened. With my faith in God, I do have some hope that this is all part of his wonderful plan for me but I cannot say that with full certainty yet.

I do have a meeting this week to discuss uni related things so I’m hoping that that will allow me to see some progress and have some more clarity.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. As always, feel free to get in touch with any questions/feedback/comments, I always love to hear it. Stay tuned for the next instalment.

Until next time

Kathryn