If you haven’t realised this already, anxiety affects your decision making and how joyful you feel. Trying to juggle so many different things doesn’t help either. I have been reminded of this recently while job hunting, adjusting to live more independently and trying to keep up the social commitments I enjoy while trying to work out my feelings about the future. Putting too much pressure on myself to know right now what the right things to do are and living with a to-do list attitude does not help you to feel joyful and at peace.

You are bound not to make sound decisions when you are feeling anxious and less confident. Due to the feedback I received on my placement performance last year, I feel unsure if I could take my place on the course back up next year or whether it is a sign that there is something else that I should be doing out with the course. I know that I need to see with time if I will think differently so I’m trying not to steer my thinking too much in one direction right now.  

I am trying to remind myself of the importance of self-reflection which comes from having quiet reflection and staying less busy. I have had a few days revolving around this recently. At first, it seems like you’re being lazy and I think I have to find something to do rather than just sitting in silence. However, as I write this, I have enjoyed a morning of taking things slow, having no need to set an alarm, not having anything that urgently needs done (although I hope that doesn’t come back to bite me later!) and for the first time in a little while, being able to gather my thoughts into a blog post.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope you find it helpful. As always, feel free to get in touch with any questions/feedback/comments, I always love to hear it. Stay tuned for the next instalment.

Until next time

Kathryn