There have been things that have affected me in the last few months that I could have written about in an instalment. However, I don’t think this would be the place to share them.

I confess that I haven’t done everything that I have written about previously. Although I have my better days when encouraging myself and reminding myself about positive things is easier, there will always be the not so good days when I have to learn and sometimes re-learn tricks to pick myself back up again.

What I can share here is that I am try to motivate myself to work through my social anxiety. I have been referred to an online course by my GP which I can work through at my own pace. This anxiety comes and goes. In the right environment where I feel confident in what I am doing and I feel encouraged, I can see how far I have come from the person I was as a teenager. However, when I don’t feel as confident in what I am doing and who I am (and as I talked about in the previous instalment), when my general mental health declines, certain social situations can feel more overwhelming.

Self-isolation became more difficult by the end and reminded me how much I need other people and activities to keep me motivated. I’m hoping that as I come out of isolation that at least some of these depressive feelings ease and things will start to feel more normal again once I go back to work. That being said, this time has made me think about things that I’ve never been able to fully put into words. So, I’ve definitely been reminded of the importance of reflecting before acting when it comes to unknown feelings and emotions.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. As always, feel free to get in touch with any questions/feedback/comments, I always love to hear them. Stay tuned for the next instalment.

Until next time

K